I’m going to be attending law school in the fall, and while I feel excited to be returning to the academic world I just don’t feel that thrilled about law school. I keep having doubts and I’m concerned that I’m not heading in the right direction. I think, however, that if I can survive law school and do my own thing with it then I will be happy. I don’t want to get bogged down in this dry legal world but here is definitely a warmer, brighter side to law that I feel like I could live in.
Still, I feel like I’m walking down this path after having made a choice at the fork in the road but I keep glancing back. I keep thinking I want to turn around. Is that fear? Am I just anxious about this 3 years of studying hell I’m about to decend into? Maybe it’s just the weight of all the “advice” I’ve been given about how hard law school is and to survive you need to study 24/7, sacrificing life for books. That’s intimidating stuff but is it worth turning around for?
I can’t shake the thought, however, that going to graduate school for Classics or museum studies is where I should aim. The only thing that turns me off about that is that I would need to go back to college to take the Latin I missed out on (for a Classics grad). I’m unsure about the museum qualifications. The downside to that is that I worry I’m just dwelling on the past. I loved being a Classics major but maybe that was due to the teachers and my friends? Maybe, I wouldn’t love it AS much with anyone else?
I do enjoy aspects of the law. There is definitely a pull there and I think I could find a life I’d love there, but I can’t figure out if it’s THE pull. Is this the right way? My doubt worries me. I don’t think I’m lawyer material sometimes. I love Classics but can’t tell if I loved Agnes Scott Classics or if I’d been taught anywhere else would I have still majored in it?
This whole figuring out who you are thing is hard. I wish I had a thousand lives so I could try a thousand professions and hobbies. Then I wouldn’t be bogged down into deciding it all. Right. Now.
Travel agent also sounds fun.